Wow. So I finished The Perks of Being a Wallflower today. Wow. I just really don’t know what to say. I hope I can put what I’m thinking into words.
First off, the writing style of the book just kept me more involved. I mean, if you think about it, if the book was written in third person, you would never be able to get the same connection with Charlie.
Reading that book, I just realized how much stuff is out there in the world. I’ve been living in a very sheltered environment all this time. I mean, I understood that there was weird stuff going on out in the world, but this book just brought everything closer to me. I just get it now. I don’t think I’ll have to use much of the things I’ve learned from Charlie’s experiences, but it’s just nice to know.
What Charlie’s been through probably isn’t something that I can relate to, but I’m just really glad I read it because that story is just with me now. Something that will be with me for awhile. Something that will change the way I think or do things. I think that books that change the way you think or do things are the books that really matter.
Anyways, some of my favorite quotes from the novel that really stuck out to me:
*”Girls like guys to be a challenge. It gives them some mold to fit in how they act.”
*”Charlie, we accept the love we think we deserve.”
*I put my head under my pillow and let the quiet put things where they are supposed to be.
I think this is the one that stood out the most to me:
“He’s my whole world.”
“Don’t ever say that about anyone again. Not even me.” That was my mom.
I guess it’s because I kind of just regarded the mom as a person who was just there. Charlie always mentioned how she was just quiet and didn’t say much, especially in large ‘family discussions.’ With her just breaking out like that, I was a little surprised at first. But I literally sat there and probably reread those two lines at least 10 times. They just made so much sense. Why should somebody live their life for someone else and not themselves?
Like when Charlie read that book called The Fountainhead, there was a quote:
“I would die for you. But I won’t live for you.”
Charlie’s interpretation of that really opened up the reason behind the quote as well as the reason behind his mom’s outburst. Why live your life if you’re not living for yourself? I feel like I need to change myself somehow. I need to stop living my life for other people. I’ve always been kind of hidden, scared to really tell people my opinion. Always afraid of being rejected or something.
I need to start living for myself.